hcourageous:
Dear Zack Snyder,
last year I was suicidal. it was one of the worst and most terrifying times of my life, and it’s something i’ve struggled to get help with, but when i was at my worst i held on to the fact that Batman v Superman was coming out on my birthday, a movie i spent three years waiting for and was anticipating so much, god help me i was going to live to see it.
and when i did i cried because it changed me. it moved me. it was worth so much to me and i needed it and it’s message of hope so badly.
you’ve always been such an inspiration to me, you and Deborah, your films and your heart.
my heart is so broken for you, i have you and your family in my thoughts and prayers, and take all the time you need in the world to heal. you deserve so much. please know how much your love and dedication to the universe that has been my safe haven means to me and to many other fan.
we love you and support you and we’re standing with you.
thank you for everything.
I’m reblogging this because I need to give some further thoughts in light of Justice League.
In 2015 I pursued my dream, moved across the country for it, and landed flat on my face. I left in disgrace, moving to live with my sister for a bit, and experience a kind of isolated,lonely hell I can’t properly describe. I was alone, suicidal, and broken. I literally had nothing left. Everything I put my faith and heart into was gone, and I didn’t know if I could take anything else. But you know what?
Batman V Superman was coming out, on the weekend of my birthday, and that felt… like a sign almost. Something I was so excited for, because I loved my DC heroes, I loved Zack Snyder(my main and massive inspiration for wanting to be a filmmaker), and I’d defended it and waited too damn long to not see it. So every night I cried myself to sleep, and every day it got too easy to see myself just… wrapping my car around a pole, I thought about my birthday. About Batman V Superman, about seeing it with my friends and having something to hold on to.
And then March came around, I moved back to Washington, and got to see the first early showing of Batman V Superman.
That movie means more to me then any movie I’ve ever seen. It reminded me why I want to be a filmmaker, it made me realize I can’t, I can’t give up on my dream to be a director. It gave me hope. It showed me my heroes who I’ve loved my whole life going through what I had gone through. Lost all hope. Isolated. Alone. Stuck in grief. And then?
It showed me sacrifice.
It showed me redemption.
It reminded me that men are still good.
That the world is worth saving.
Zack gave me that.
Zack Snyder reminded me the hope is hard, it’s not smiling when your sad. It’s not platitudes, or jokes, or bright colors. It’s grimy, it’s straining muscles, its pitch black with one small ray of light on the horizon, it’s the first, aching breath after almost drowning, it’s storm clouds in the distance after a drought. Hope isn’t an easy answer. It’s a difficult choice.
I’m alive right now. And I want to live. And that’s largely because of the message of BvS and Zack Snyder.
My heart goes out to you and what you’ve been through, too, OP. Thank you for sharing this.